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| Okay, so life isn't what i had planned right now on so many levels.
But I'm starting to learn somethings
to be able to really be vulnerable to love you have to put yourself out there whether in a friendship with girls or a romantic relationship with a guy now this is not easy for me i carry those scars from past relationships...but im learning the risk is such a journey and sometimes this can also be compared to the risk of loving God- we humans are so weighed down by our hurts and past situations i think we risk living sometimes...this is me sometimes but im working on it !
yes very deep thoughts i know but this is my release here ~
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| I'm inspired to journal today. I was working last night with my kids- (counseling center program) and I found myself repetively in the situation of having a little hand hold onto my hand. these children I come into contact with are labeled and damaged. and I get the priviledge of holding their little delicate battered hands. i can somewhat understand sometimes how Jesus feels. we hold his hand and he knows everything about us- I dont know everything about these children but the moments of holding their hands spoke volumes to me. maybe its because i'm artsy or passionate but he spoke to me last night. treat these hands as if they are gold. i only hope that this experience lends more jesus moments in the future. i see these kids once a week for roughly 3hrs and i dont know if their parents realize the beauty they posess. so im rambling poetic phrases intermingled with jesus moments..life is confusing right now but its sooo good...blessings to all of you~
" i love when you called me adorable : ) " | | |
| Okay Hey Everyone!
SO I haven't updated in awhile and I keep being reminded to update my xanga! I'm trying to save money to get my own apt. but it's definitely hard! :( I have two jobs right now, I'm working as the stand advisor of Knox County. I'm also working as a mentor for at-risk youth. I'm waiting to get matched with a teen! I'm excited about being able to work one on one with a teen. Hopefully I can help them along with their goals and so on.
I REALLY can't wait to get my own place. But I have to save so much money:( It's hard moving out on your own.....
Today is sweetest day! I don't celebrate this day! HAHA! I might if I had a guy to hangout with that's a potential but I definitely don't have one! It's fine- I am going out with my friend Melissa tonight so you know two single girls will tear up c-bus or atleast attempt too- all in a good way- Well
Eventually all the peices will fall into place..until then, LAUGH at the confusion, LIVE for the moment, and know that everything happens for a REASON.
thanks BR I love this quote
also, i heard this song on laguna beach and i cant find who the song is by for the life of me ive searched everywhere for it.... so if ya know let me know thanks guys
"my whole life in frames, warn out boxes of hand me down dreams pictures of us, collecting dust"
Be Blessed~
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| This song just says how I feel...
Superchick Lyrics
Me Against The World Lyrics
Wanna quit and give up
Simon says to pack it up
Shot down from all sides
Don't know why I try
So take this and kiss it
Goodbye won't miss it
I wanna go back to L.A.
I don't belong that's what they say
They said don't try to change the world
You're just a girl
So it's..me against the world today
I'm gonna do it my own way
And though nobody understands
I'm gonna make a one girl stand
It's not Independence Day
I can't waste time on what they say
If we believe when we have faith
We're gonna change the world someday
Back again one more time
Couldn't keep me down last time
Leaving what I know on faith
To take on the world and make waves
Still standing defiant
Maybe me against the giants
L.A. wasn't built in a day
Games going long but I still play
If we believe, when we have faith
We're gonna change the world someday
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| I SAW SWITCHFOOT IN CONCERT WITH KRISTINA-- SOO GOOD!!!!
Wow! I'm back in O H I O...I'm hitting up the job scene and so far I've left resume' and filled out tons of applications. So it is hard to find something even though I have a degree...I just know that God is faithful.
Things are defitnitely different right now and I feel that I'm in this inbetween-ness (my own word) living with my parents...Things I never would have thought after college. But I really feel peace and assurance that God will provide and he is my hope and my song that is constantly singing for me...
So if ya are down in the dumps or just loosing hope remember God's love is unfailing...HE never changes and sometimes I forget that but HE is with us no matter what!!
So if ya'll know of any jobs that might be something I'm interested in don't hesitate to let me know...possibilities: a job that helps youth and just encourages them in their life!!
PEACE OUT! | | |
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